Feelings for another person can change you. When I fell in love for the first time, I thought it was the best feeling in the world, which it is, but it's the worst feeling in the world when it comes to an end. I had a messy and confusing end to my relationship. Things got hard for me; I didn't want to leave my room, I didn't want to talk to many people, I cried so many times, I was heartbroken. I thought I was never going to be okay. When you fall in love with someone, your brain kind of blurs out flaws of one another. I mean, you never want to see the bad in someone.
When you break things off with someone, you realize how hard it is to get past whatever the reasonings it ended. I was never the person to open up to someone and become too vulnerable, but I did, and when my boyfriend and I broke things off, I felt so dumb. I kept asking myself why? What is wrong with me? Am I good enough? What did I do? I started to think that I was the problem. It got hard as time went on because I would overthink so much and how I thought we were meant to be together and were not together anymore. I learned that living in the past stops you from living in the present and moving into the future. I started to do things for me. I began to think of only myself and what would make me a better woman. I got to college and met all these new people who loved me, and I knew that what happened to me had to happened to me for me to be able to get where I am now. I stopped thinking about why? What is wrong with me? Am I good enough? What did I do? and I started to think, what do I want for myself? What can I do to make my future better? And that I am good enough. I realized that the only way to be free is to let go of the person. I had so many things I looked forward to with the man I fell in love with, which got me thinking I can still do those things by myself. I made myself the main character in my own world. I became independent. If you are meant to be with someone, you will end up with them. Sometimes we fall in love too early in life; give it time.
"one of the happiest moments in life is when you find the courage to let go of what you cut change"
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